Self Expression Sunday #6

I wrote the following poem a year ago, when I was insecure about my value and place in my relationships. I often found myself making excuses for people and changing parts of myself in an effort to strengthen my friendships. Over time, it became extremely draining, and eventually I had to turn to myself and use my own claws to make my life a happier one. I chose to share this poem because it helped me understand what I needed- to break my own cycle of self-induced pain. Regardless of whatever friendship or relationship has been causing you distress, you can get yourself out of it. Your home is you. Don’t let anyone make you feel otherwise. 

Here comes autumn, the trees sing. 

I, like any leaf, change my colors in anticipation of your cool breeze. 

Here comes autumn, the trees sing. 

Like the other years, I fall for you unquestioningly. 

But autumn, did you ever realize that each time I fall

I give up my home for you?

My branches, my tree. 

Now, again, as I reach the ground, 

I look up at what was my home. 

You don’t care that I fell for you, 

And yet I’m forced to fall everytime. 

Here comes autumn, the trees sing. 

But this time I don’t want you to come.